Friends.

Hey guys.

One thing in this world i couldn't live without, is my friends.

Yes, you heard me. I actually put my friends in my priority list, i'm sure most of you do too. Sometimes when things get tough outside, you're just so afraid to share it with your family. That's when friends put on their cape and be a superhero to save you, they're like my daily does of happy pills. I can number out a whole list on what i'm thankful about, but i guess words cannot express how happy i am to have them in my life. They're not related to me, but they treated me like one of their own. Somehow i wish that all those who left came back, maybe i would have been a little better.

Many people in my life whom i thought would have stayed, left. They were so close to me and i don't know what i would do for them, anything i supposed. When i was in Secondary School, making friends was the hardest part. I was kinda stupid back then, i thought everyone was my friend. I trusted them all, i gave what i could to the friendship. Worse of all, i didn't notice how i was being used. I thought it was all normal, then it seems that everything was actually falling apart. No, i didn't see it coming. I wasn't prepared for it because i wasn't in the right mind to think people would actually do this to me, ain't wise enough to see who is real or who is fake.

Everyone love their first day of school, where new people come together and know one another. Slowly when people got close to each other, war just begin. My kind of war isn't battling out with them, my kind of war is walking solo. Imagine having so many people against you for no apparent reason, out of the blue they just left one by one. I couldn't believe what i was encountering, it wasn't the first time but it was the worse experience ever. All those who i thought was my friend, they betrayed me without even knowing it.  I was all alone, fighting this battle slowly. Crying myself to sleep all night thinking what i've done wrong to them. Then i realized, i did nothing at all. 

Yes yes, Secondary School is all about people being so bimbostic and stuff. Trust me, i thought it was so cool that i almost became one of them. The fact is, i'm actually happy how much of shit i went through back then. It let me realize who my real friends really are, i guess because of this i became more wiser in choosing my friends. When years passed, shit still went on but i was stronger. I finally stood back up and fight for my rights, i wouldn't at all let anyone climb over my head like they did before. I was fighting the war all these years, it was a hurting memory but there wasn't a choice i could choose from. Everyday was a struggle, being called names and what not. 

What would you have done?

I chose the easier way out, i decided to let everything go when i reached Secondary 4. I was more mature compared to many years ago, wise enough to choose my friends. Sad to say, it took me 4 years to know who my real and close friends are. Even until now, they're still as dear to me. We went through many shits too, but we became best friends after umpteen times of argues. All those who left and came back then left again, i can't even be bothered anymore. That shows that they're not even true at all, they don't even bother fighting this friendship but kept adding fuel to the fire. I guess i'm sick and tired of people who kept stepping on my tail, next time i'll just take my tail to whack the hell out of them if they ever use me again. They really took me as a white board, literally spamming vulgarities at me like a free flow. C'mon, time to grow up bro. I ain't your toy anymore, so get over it.

These are the people whom i trust the most, they never ever let me go.

The ones that i shared most of my everything, some are drifted but some stayed.

This girl here, i love her a lot. She means everything in my whole life.

All the memories we once had, will never be forgotten.

I love all my friends, the real ones. I thank God for putting each one of them in life, I was broken but they mended me back into one piece again. I guess i couldn't express myself on how thankful i am since i am such a harsh girl but the truth is, i could cry cos i'm so touched by them. They're a bonus in my life, the colors that never fade off when others turned black and grey. Right now, thinking back of how much i've went through just to have the real ones staying by my side, i'm truly glad. Glad that all of this took place, its painful but it was worth the fight. In the end, there's just too many things to learn from it. I've learned mine, have you?

Of cos in life, you'll meet many many more new people. Its awesome cos you can expand your social life but be sure not to neglect all those who was there when no one else was, just saying. New friends are awesome, at this century you wouldn't find anymore people who are trying to climb on top of you. Cos you are already wise enough to see it, then prevent it. It all comes down naturally, just stop for a moment and be observant. My new friends can be trusted, for now. They have not done anything to me that could bring me down, i know because i observe(:

The one that kept my Faith going when i lost it all, thanks Dee.

My Cell Group, the ones who build up the inner me.

Thanks for everything, you're the best i ever had.