Life.

Hey guys.

I guess i should really dedicate this post to all the people out there who are going through some tough times in life, it might not help you but i'm sure you'll still read it anyway i hope. This post might be hilarious to some cos there will be pretty much a lot of craps you'll laugh about my miserable life but i'll post it anyway, cos it'll make me feel so much better. 

 

Let's talk about Life shall we? Everyone hate life sometimes and everyone love life sometimes, it kinda depends on the situation we're in. Just like how happy and joyful you'll be when something good happened to you in an instant. Then on the other hand, you'll be feeling so dull and sick of life cos of something or someone that brings you completely down. Well, all these are part of life. You can't simple change how things are going to be cos you can't see your future, its inevitable. But you can change how you want yourself to be, it will be so difficult to do that but it doesn't hurt to give it a try if you want a change to it.

My past was such a disaster, i know there are people out there who are dealing as much as me. And people would be telling me to think of someone else going through more disasters than i am. The thing is, that is other people. Yes, they are dealing with the devil on their own. But have they ever thought that i am going through some tough times as well? I can't simply put my mind in thinking that i should be considered lucky cos people out there is suffering more than i am, it is just equally sad. The phrase i heard : We Are Dealing With The Same Devil, Just Different Levels. Life just suck so much when we're dwelling in the dark, no one else to turn to.

Every single day always having to wake up to another day of hell, thinking and assuming the whole day would be a tough one. The truth is, it depends how you wake up each morning assuming a day it'll be. For me in the past, i use to wake up each morning feeling so blue even if its not on a Monday. Then whatever i feel, becomes whatever it really happened. Next thing you know, my life feels so ruined the whole day. But now, i'm starting to change my way of living. Each morning when i wake up, i'll just tell myself that it'll be an awesome day. Indeed, it happened. I believed, therefore i spoke. It taught me a lesson to always speak to your future, it will come to past if you simply just believe it.

 

I'm telling you how it has worked for me, i'm sure it'll worked for you as well. If you believe in something, you'll definitely be inviting all the good vibes in. Life isn't a bed of roses, life is a climb. If there isn't any bad encounters you have faced, you wouldn't be who you are today. You'll be living each day thinking that life is so awesome and you wouldn't learn a single thing. Pain changes people, be it good or bad. You need a bad encounter so next time you'll know how to handle a situation with a bulletproof heart, that's how things will start changing. Your mind affects everything around you, even your dreams. Yes, your dreams. I was at my worse last night, and i dreamed of huge ants crawling all over my bed. So i decided to google it and see what this dream was trying to tell me. 

It says :

To see ants in your dream signify your general dissatisfaction in your daily life. You are feeling neglected and insignificant. Or petty things will annoy you throughout the following day. The dream may also be a metaphor on feeling antsy or restless. Ants also symbolize hard work, diligence, cooperation and industry. Increase business activities are expected. On a less positive note, ants symbolize social conformity and mass action. In this regard, you may feel that your life is too structured and orderly. According to the biblical interpretations, ants symbolize diligence concerning the things of God. Despite its small size, the ant lays up substance during times of plenty.

I was pretty shock to see that actually, it kinda defines how i was feeling. Think too much in the night, then it all sums up in my dream and made me feel worse. Everything really happened for a reason, you just gotta be strong to fight it. If you simply just live your life feeling so crappy, you have already lost. When you're in a bad situation, just remind yourself that you'll overcome this. Trust me in this, smile about your bad encounter and you'll see the good things happening. Don't fret about what's gonna happen tomorrow, live happy today. It is indeed difficult to do that when you're almost dying but as long as you're alive, you'll beat the crap out of the devil dealing with you if you simply just believe that things is going to be okay. Try at least, for once maybe?

I'm at my worse today, but i've changed it. I don't feel overwhelmed with sadness anymore cos i'm looking at the bright side, its the only choice i'm left with. Happiness doesn't last forever, but sadness doesn't last forever as well. If you wanna be happy, just stop complaining about life and start living it with a good purpose. All those people who delivered sadness into your life ain't worth to be sad about, show them that you are happy without them. Indeed you are! When a person have left in your life, means their part of story have already ended. If they are meant to be there, they will fight their way to stay. See who's worth fighting and who's not, some stayed cos they are just curious.

I'm moving on with my life alone, and i'm happy.

Leave aside all the bad things and bring along all the good ones.