Flashbacks back to memorylane.

Hey guys.

 Just a quick question before i proceed further. 

What is the most painful thing you wish it could be deleted from your life?

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If you asked me back that question, i would probably answer you back with :

The most painful thing i wish it could be deleted from my life, is FLASHBACKS.

 

Many a times we tend to reflect back in our own life and think a lot about many things that have yet to take place or have already taken place and you feel rather affected by it. I don't know about you but i know the fact that i daydream way too much and the aftermath of it just wouldn't come out good. Have you ever walked by a semi-dark path or be in a place where you are all alone by yourself and suddenly a thought or flashback just glimpse through your mind? Sometimes it can be a flashback you wish you could go back to, sometimes it can be a flashback you loved back then but wish it didn't happen at all before. You know, there are many things in life that are worth more than anything else. It depends on oneself if we want to make it happen or not, we were granted free-will and no one can ever stop us from achieving what we want. It only becomes difficult when we start inviting negativity in our minds thinking that we can never accomplish it because of past encounters. All the flashbacks invading your mind, feeling like there's nothing left in you anymore.

One of it could be all your past relationships, it sucks to have to hold on to all these painful memories when you wish you could just leave it all behind and forget about every single detail about it. Or maybe you wish you should have made a better and wise decision before jumping over to the next level, everything would have been better if we were given a second chance. Things in life comes off unexpectable, we don't know who is going to come into our life to either make a difference or to break us inside out. When people come into our life, all we wanna do is just treasure them with all our mights. But when we treasure them way too much that we are have forgotten about ourselves, they just leave without an apparent reason leaving us feeling sick and disgusted. All these people whom we loved before, all these people whom we have created memories with before, those little trace of painful memories still imprinted in our minds and it just wouldn't stop haunting us everyday and night. Walking through memorylane, wishing it was all just a dream and then it comes down with a question in our heads : Why? Why me?

 

 I sometimes don't know why we were created with a mind that could remember the most hurtful scenarios ever, i always thought it was there to remind us of all the beautiful things that took place in our life. But no, flashbacks ruined me, it gave me a phobia of trusting anyone or anything again, it broke me so many times and it feels like a never ending battlefield in my mind. Even right now by just closing my eyes tightly, i could bring myself back to a place or situation that can break me easily. I'm sure i'm not the only one feeling this way, because of what we have made a memory of, it became a daily routine to think of it everytime. Constantly hoping that it could just go away and leave us forever, leaving nothing without a trace. Though at times things can seem pretty nice on the outside, but what's in our mind determines how we're feel after that. Just like how you put a seed in a soil and water it everyday, something will grow of on it. Then it wasn't a problem, until we made it into a problem unexpectedly. Watering our minds on and on with the silliest flashbacks, leaving us overly damped and worn out. 

If there could be a pill that could help us erase those painful memories, everyone would be happier. I can't make anyone feel better when it happens, i can't change a situation to make people feel more positive about what's ahead of them. Not because i don't want to help them, but because i feel so pathetic myself. All day and all night all that's in my mind are just hurtful and unforgettable stuff that i want to leave it out of me. There are definitely a solution to overcome it all, its time. As time goes by, the memory will slowly fade away. The scars would become less visible, you'll feel that the burden you have held on for so long are lightening. Its not going to be an easy path to walk on, but i'm sure all of you who are still stuck in your past will definitely recover from it. Though now it feels like it can never happen, take it easy and fret not for you are stronger than who you think you are. No one said it was going to be easy, but no one said that it was going to be forever either. I want to live my life with happy history, i want to delete all the past history and invade it with good ones, there's not much time anymore.

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