Hey guys.
Been quite a long time since i blogged an entry, took me quite awhile to think of what topic i should post. Maybe i should come out with an entry that everyone can relate to, and not always just talk about myself just because this is my blog. I'm sure there are problems people are facing everyday and sad to say that i won't be able to solve anything or make it better but to let you guys know that i am here for you and want to encourage you if there's any probability that i could do so. I don't want you to feel all sad and dull cos of a bad situation, you know i know everyone knows that this can be solved so stop being stubborn and start listening for some advice.
You know, i have many friends who are really happy but i don't exactly know what is going through their minds at times or what they have gone through be it at home or somewhere else. I just know clearly that they are always cheerful and always giving me an impression that they are joyful and enjoying their own existence in this world. But you know the sentence that people always say : 'The happiest person is the most hurting', i'm not sure if this is a true fact. But i know that people do use their laughter and smiles to cover up every flaws and pains they have. They are just too stubborn not to expose how much they are hurting but continues to feel crappy inside by covering it up with a fake smile. It is definitely a good thing to do so, but me myself thinks that it can be unbearable sometimes and it hurts a lot. There is a limit whereby i can still hold on to but when it reaches the maximum, nothing can ever stop me from breaking down so much that i could just die instantly.
Upon leaving all your friends after a good laugh, you'll be heading home feeling good for awhile. But when you are alone in an enclose area, all the negativeness just starts to overwhelm you and you'll go back to where you were before feeling all empty and dry again. I've been there and done that, it isn't as easy as it seems. Smiling so much but behind close doors are just a pack of lies i kept within myself just to make myself happy and the people around me happy. The feeling do get worse sometimes and nothing seems to be the solution but just replacing it up with another face that are covered with lies and pain. Most people tend to do that because they don't want to be a burden to anyone and would prefer to just suffer it alone till it is gone. What's worse is that this feeling doesn't go away after a long time but it keeps growing more and more till it is unbearable to hold on to.
The fact that people are always struggling cos of the same problems everyday, makes me wonder why they don't wanna solve it as soon as possible but let the pain grow deeper and therefore, leading them to more negative thoughts and more pain inside of them. When you're with someone long enough, you'll be able to see for yourself if your close friends are really happy or simply just faking a smile. When i bring up the topic to them, they just breakdown and cry. It feels like their emotions has reached a certain limit and they can't hold on to it any longer. Being a friend, i am not there to condemn anyone of them but to bring them back to the right place where i feel they deserve the most. I don't see a need for them to keep all their problems inside their heart and mind especially when they're with someone close, letting it all out makes everyone feels better. Though sometimes nothing can be solved, but at least the problems are all poured out and you'll feel a little better after that.
I don't want my friends to think that he/she has to suffer alone, i don't see a need to cos everyone have problems and it has to be solved so everyone can be happy and feel good after that without faking a smile. I know that this is a difficult situation but if you don't let people in to solve it with you, then where are you heading to? Would you rather keep it to yourself, or just share it with someone close to you and feel a little better after that? Me being a friend, i dislike people faking a smile. Because i know that feeling and it hurts pretty much a lot, like anytime you can just breakdown and have that tendency to just kill yourself and not wake up anymore. People wouldn't suffer because of you, people wouldn't have to go through such pain with you, people wouldn't have to see what you're really made of. Free as a bird, no attention but just disappearance.
All these thinking wouldn't solve anything. You'll only be making people around you worse and letting them think why they are so useless cos they are not able to see how much you're hurting deep inside. In the days to come, people will regret every single day of not being able to be a helping hand to you when you needed one but didn't bother to ask. A problem left undone is like me slapping someone without saying a single word and just walking off. There are many people around you dying to know what your problems are and dying to help you solve whatever they can. In that case, let them in and see what is better for you. Don't dwell in darkness for too long because that is not a place where you deserve to be in. You deserve to be happy, don't ever think that you should suffer alone. If your best friends is going through the same thing you are going through, obviously you'll reach out to them and help them. Same goes to you, people will always be there so stop doubting and start letting.
Been quite a long time since i blogged an entry, took me quite awhile to think of what topic i should post. Maybe i should come out with an entry that everyone can relate to, and not always just talk about myself just because this is my blog. I'm sure there are problems people are facing everyday and sad to say that i won't be able to solve anything or make it better but to let you guys know that i am here for you and want to encourage you if there's any probability that i could do so. I don't want you to feel all sad and dull cos of a bad situation, you know i know everyone knows that this can be solved so stop being stubborn and start listening for some advice.
You know, i have many friends who are really happy but i don't exactly know what is going through their minds at times or what they have gone through be it at home or somewhere else. I just know clearly that they are always cheerful and always giving me an impression that they are joyful and enjoying their own existence in this world. But you know the sentence that people always say : 'The happiest person is the most hurting', i'm not sure if this is a true fact. But i know that people do use their laughter and smiles to cover up every flaws and pains they have. They are just too stubborn not to expose how much they are hurting but continues to feel crappy inside by covering it up with a fake smile. It is definitely a good thing to do so, but me myself thinks that it can be unbearable sometimes and it hurts a lot. There is a limit whereby i can still hold on to but when it reaches the maximum, nothing can ever stop me from breaking down so much that i could just die instantly.
Upon leaving all your friends after a good laugh, you'll be heading home feeling good for awhile. But when you are alone in an enclose area, all the negativeness just starts to overwhelm you and you'll go back to where you were before feeling all empty and dry again. I've been there and done that, it isn't as easy as it seems. Smiling so much but behind close doors are just a pack of lies i kept within myself just to make myself happy and the people around me happy. The feeling do get worse sometimes and nothing seems to be the solution but just replacing it up with another face that are covered with lies and pain. Most people tend to do that because they don't want to be a burden to anyone and would prefer to just suffer it alone till it is gone. What's worse is that this feeling doesn't go away after a long time but it keeps growing more and more till it is unbearable to hold on to.
The fact that people are always struggling cos of the same problems everyday, makes me wonder why they don't wanna solve it as soon as possible but let the pain grow deeper and therefore, leading them to more negative thoughts and more pain inside of them. When you're with someone long enough, you'll be able to see for yourself if your close friends are really happy or simply just faking a smile. When i bring up the topic to them, they just breakdown and cry. It feels like their emotions has reached a certain limit and they can't hold on to it any longer. Being a friend, i am not there to condemn anyone of them but to bring them back to the right place where i feel they deserve the most. I don't see a need for them to keep all their problems inside their heart and mind especially when they're with someone close, letting it all out makes everyone feels better. Though sometimes nothing can be solved, but at least the problems are all poured out and you'll feel a little better after that.
I don't want my friends to think that he/she has to suffer alone, i don't see a need to cos everyone have problems and it has to be solved so everyone can be happy and feel good after that without faking a smile. I know that this is a difficult situation but if you don't let people in to solve it with you, then where are you heading to? Would you rather keep it to yourself, or just share it with someone close to you and feel a little better after that? Me being a friend, i dislike people faking a smile. Because i know that feeling and it hurts pretty much a lot, like anytime you can just breakdown and have that tendency to just kill yourself and not wake up anymore. People wouldn't suffer because of you, people wouldn't have to go through such pain with you, people wouldn't have to see what you're really made of. Free as a bird, no attention but just disappearance.
All these thinking wouldn't solve anything. You'll only be making people around you worse and letting them think why they are so useless cos they are not able to see how much you're hurting deep inside. In the days to come, people will regret every single day of not being able to be a helping hand to you when you needed one but didn't bother to ask. A problem left undone is like me slapping someone without saying a single word and just walking off. There are many people around you dying to know what your problems are and dying to help you solve whatever they can. In that case, let them in and see what is better for you. Don't dwell in darkness for too long because that is not a place where you deserve to be in. You deserve to be happy, don't ever think that you should suffer alone. If your best friends is going through the same thing you are going through, obviously you'll reach out to them and help them. Same goes to you, people will always be there so stop doubting and start letting.
DON'T BE SELFISH TO YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU DON'T DESERVE IT.
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