The reflection of truth.

Hey guys.

Has been quite a long time since i blogged after my last entry, i find it pretty inconvenient for myself to find time at home to blog because i don't have a proper laptop or desktop to type on comfortably. I'm still finding ways to save up money to buy myself a laptop so that i can use it with authority and of cos be happy about it. Hate it so much when i stopped working, gotta find so many ways to save up money here and there when i just want to buy all the things that catches my eyes but i just can't. Not that i'm poor poor, but just keeping all my leftovers after my last day of work to keep me alive. Mummy still gives me pocket money but i find it so mean to always have to stay home and without working my ass off just like how my family did. I'm still waiting for my school results so i can't possibly do much now cos i want to find a full-time job with good pay and let it last till i reaches the top of the peak. So while waiting for the results, i'm just an unemployed soul wandering around. Hopefully some awesome people would be knocking on my door to intro some jobs to me, a job without stress. (E.g. NO F&B, Retail)

Anyway, i'm not here to actually talk about my whole life statuses. I'm pretty sure i need to author a whole book if that was my intention, but no. I'm here to blog about how you can change your perspective on yourself. You know, sometimes most of you would be starring deep into the mirror wondering why in the world you look like that. Or maybe why you were born in this world, cos you find no specific meaning to it because you're living your life in darkness most of the time. In the past, my weakness was always facing the mirrors. I know some pretty girls love looking at all the mirrors they can possibly find anywhere, because they simply like to look good and of cos assure themselves that they are pretty. I love looking myself in the mirror too but sometimes when i'm at my lowest, the mirror can be my enemy. It can be someone i can talk with, curse and swear at, cry and be angry with and there will never be a respond because it is just me seeing how pathetic i was in that reflection. Its like all i saw in that reflection was just pain and sadness, nothing else actually matters cos i was that hurt.

You know, sometimes the mirror can be something you'll see in the future. If you confess in the mirror and tell yourself that you are successful and never give up believing that you are, you'll definitely be successful when you make your way up for it. But if you ever confess in the mirror that you are useless and a trash, you'll find yourself not giving yourself a chance but to believe that you are really a failure in life. The fact is, the mirror can be your best friend or your enemy. It depends on how you look at it everyday and it depends on what words you use on it everyday. Most people out there are always telling through their reflections that they are this and they are that, but they never know how they can change things with just one word or a sentence. Maybe at our lowest, it always seems like there isn't anymore solution or maybe we are just too lazy to think of one because our minds are conquered by all the devil's lies telling us that we are not going to make it. The fact that we can overcome it, some are just lazy and find no means and ways to get over it. We can never blame them, this is the parts and parcel of life.
 

My way of changing how i think about myself everyday is just simple. Everytime when i face the mirror, i confess to what it is true and never stop believing in it. I will tell myself that today is a good day, i will tell myself that i am beautiful the way i am, i will tell myself that i am a conqueror in the most difficult part of the day. It really helped me to get through those tough and ugly days, that was the only solution for me. Sometimes i still cry infront of the mirror, but i didn't let it bring me down because i used the right words and sentences to encourage me. In the most toughest day of your life, find any mirror around you and start confessing the right thing. Tell yourself that you can get through it because you were made for it, if you can't handle something, it will definitely not be added onto you. Life is fair, sometimes we think it is pretty ridiculous but when you take a good look at the bigger picture, you'll see why it happened. You might think an ugly situation happened for no reason on you, the only thing i can tell you is, there is always a reason and no one will know it unless they go through it and slowly find the answers themselves.

It is going to be a tough battle between you and you, but know the fact that it will be over. If something happens, it will definitely end. Start confessing the good things in your life and wait for yourself to prosper, believe that things happened for a change. Quit telling yourself how much of a failure you are, if i can overcome this weakness, why can't you? Its a matter of time for things to work out good, so take your time and don't give up.

' The mirror is the worst judge of true beauty. '
- Sophia Nam