Love, is an enemy.

Hey guys.

Pardon me for my super duper long decades for not posting an entry recently, most of my Saturdays was unexpectedly burned without me even knowing it. I guess i was just way too exhausted of work to have my brain organize my time management properly, i felt really insecure for not blogging for a long time. Hopefully things are still alright for most of you out there who reads my blog regularly, i'm back on track to bring you one step closer to what i wanna speak out and bring my point out to everyone who reads this today. So readers out there, bear with me for awhile and i hope that this entry is relevant to you somehow.

Let's talk about LOVE, shall we?

You know, love can be the most romantic thing ever or it can be the worse enemy ever. It depends on what kind of love you have found for yourself, and how much you think you should deserve a love like this. Love is beautiful, love is kind. Everyone expresses their love differently to each different individual. Be it a family member, a very close friend, someone they really love or even an enemy. There is always a different kind of feelings you have for someone, sometimes is a feeling that is unbearable to hold on to that you wish you could just give up and move on from it. Sometimes is a feeling of hatred you grudge upon that one person because of all the ugly encounters and experiences you have with that one particular person. Its all different, and i wish i got this ability to make it all better for once and not screw it up. Some people gave up on love after a bad relationship, some just decided to go for someone with the same sex after a bad relationship. All these isn't wrong at all, its just a feeling we wish we could all just erase and not remember. No flashbacks, no memories, no pain, no regrets.

I gotta say this. I know that most of us have been hurt deeply many times and you thought that the next one that comes along would be different but ended up being the same. Next thing you know, you just start to find love in all the wrong places and get yourself hurt more deeply but couldn't feel it cos you're all just numbed up and painless. Some just started to give up on a serious relationship and start taking love as a game, playing people's heart until they themselves feel satisfied. They have been hurt so badly that they don't want to feel anymore, but just give up and be a player. To all those people out there who are like this, or who have gone through things like this. I'm not trying to condemn anyone, i just want you to know that there is a better place for you to find love at. You might have encounter a bad relationship many times but if it hasn't been better, means its not the end yet. There is still hope and i can reassure you that things will get better eventually, history might repeat but you'll never know that that one person's heart you've been playing around with was the one for you.

Its pretty simple for me to just say, but difficult for you to do it. Even while typing this, i feel so heartbroken. I thought for once that it was all true but someone just came along and broke my trust, how am i supposed to feel? I healed myself from the past, hoping that things will get better. It is because of my temptations that led me to a wrong path, a regret i will never forget. Just so you know, i hate being a third party in a relationship, everyone hates it to the core. He/She cheated on you with someone else, what makes you think that he/she wouldn't cheat on you as well? This feeling of being played, being a spare tire, what was i thinking? Just that one person's action and words, it hurt me deeply. Don't ever kiss me, hug me, or flatter me if you are fucking attached. I don't buy shit like that, i feel rather cheap about it. I've ruin a relationship, i have broken an unknown girl's heart without me even knowing the damn truth. I should've ask, i should've not fall for it but i guess i just failed on it. I shouldn't have gone to that place if i know i would have met a person like you, not because of you but my own thinking that i thought it was all real. But no, i was wrong. So wrong that i feel a stab in my heart so deeply.

I'm sorry for whomever i've harmed, its a mistake i know i shouldn't make. But everything happened so fast at a blink of an eye, all that's left is just a great impact in my heart that i'll never forget. So people, don't do this to yourself or someone else. You don't know just how impactful one small little thing can be to someone else's heart. If you knew about it, you'll just feel a sense of guilt and shame. Never ever play with someone's heart, never ever cheat on someone, never ever be a bitch and take everything into your own hands cos you know that it will all go wrong eventually. One fine day when you decided to be serious again, karma will bite you up in your ass and give you back what you deserve. So don't blame people for a broken heart but yourself, you can change things but you decided not to. Whatever you do in life, be it a good thing or a bad thing, it will definitely give you back what you asked for. I may sound a little pissed off or hatredful, but its all part of life i have to face.

Moral of the story : No More Making The Same Mistakes Ever Again!